Life · Personal Thoughts

Brain VS Body VS Heart

I’m in the middle of serious life crisis and lately, I think a lot. My brain keep thinking and thinking and thinking until I have to be reaaallly tired so I can get to sleep. These past 2 days I’ve been caught a flu and took some medicine, it also helps me to sleep faster. But I know taking on medication is not good. What I need to do to help me sleep faster actually a settlement upon my crisis.

My friend Hira yesterday told me, “Kok lo malah nggak bisa tidur sih? ‘Kan ini lo yang mau, dia juga udah setuju? Udah tenang dong lo harusnya?” I told her selama palu belum diketok dan surat belum ditandatangani, saya belum bisa hidup dengan tenang. Otak ini akan terus berpikir, hati akan terus khawatir, dan efeknya adalah susah tidur itu.

Last night I went to sleep on 11-ish PM, only to be awaken by 12.30 AM for..I don’t know why. Tried to go back to sleep but I ended up scrolling over instagram to get my eyes tired and sleepy again. Duh, brain, what is wrong with you? Why can’t you just stop thinking and give commands to each of my organs so they keep me alive. No need to process on thoughts whatsoever.

I never thought that this ‘heart’ business would involve brain and body as well. I thought it’s okay to have this heart ruined as long as I still have my brain and body functioned normally. Turns out, brain, body, and heart comes in a package. You can’t expect the others functioned normally while the other is malfunction. And vice versa.

I have to find a resolution for my self before this internalization of sadness dragging me down. I just want to be functioned normally, again. Please brain, be cooperate and let my body get healthy. And you, heart, your job is to pump blood, not to be involved in emotional feelings.

Life · love

Marry Who?

Rima aku diingetin sama path pernah posting kayak giniii hahahahah 😆
Dulu kamu posting ‘Don’t marry rich. Be rich.’ Terus aku tambahin ‘Together.’

Kita pernah seambisius ini kaak. Perempuan ibukota banget yaa ✌🏻😆 – with Rima Gravianty

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Birthday Greetings · Happy Moment · Life

Dear My One and Only Sister…

Today is my sister’s birthday. Kalo dia liat gw posting ini, pasti gw ditabokk. Untung kakak gw terlalu genius utk main path hehehe.

Seriously, I never thought that a profession as ‘scientist’ does exist in real world. Evrytime I heard about ‘scientist’ what across in my mind was a people who wears white laboratory jacket, with thick glasses, baldy head (for male) or tangled ponytail hair (for female), brings papers and pencil everywhere, wearing braces and get freckles on their cheek, etc. Then my sister got a job in a prominent palm oil company, and her job is actually so called scientist. Everyday she deals with palm growth data, doing research with microscope, counting and analyzing, and so on. My perception of scientist then changed. Yes, my sister wears white laboratory coat in her working environment, but no, she doesn’t wear thick glasses (mine is thicker actually), she doesn’t wear braces (while I did), and her hair is actually well-maintained.

She is good with numbers and data. Like, really frickin’ good. Not a gadget freak, but she can spend hours in front of her laptop or her tablet, browsing or reading anything she likes. And she downloaded lots of e-book on her tablet. Oh yeah, she loves reading sooo much.

But in the other side, she’s not so good with other people’s feeling. A bit lack of empathy, if I may say. Not so easy to get along with. But she knows a lot of tv serial updates, so if you’re a fans of tv serial such as Bones, Glee, NCIS (she loves NCIS so much), CSI and so on, then you’ll enjoy hours of talking with her. She knows many details about those tv serials.

Despite her flaws and her strengths, I couldn’t ask for better sister. We argue a lot, but we love each other more. Lagian kayaknya gw deh yg lebih spoiled dan messy hahaha.

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Happy Moment · Life · Social

Dear Classmate…

Dulu gw nggak paham kenapa orang bisa kompak bgt sama temen2 S2-nya. Setelah hampir 1 semester sama B 30 A, gw paham. 2x ngerjain ujian take home sekelas jauuhh lebih team building drpd outbond 7 hari 7 malem.

Kalimat paling epic malem ini “udah ah, gw mau pulang. Gw nggak yakin sama jawaban gw.” Diucapkan setelah SEMUA ORANG NYALIN JAWABAN DIA.. Kak Semedi oh Kak Semedi… 😛🔫😂 -ripet Cindy/Rizki – with Ira, Aya Putri, Handi, Cindy, Monica, Rizki, Kukuh, astrilaksita, Isharrizki, Bayu, Diaz, Puti Lenggo, Radja, and Iradianty at Gadjah Mada University – Jakarta Campus

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